Currently it’s 5:41 AM as I begin to write this. I can’t sleep. So, I just made me a cup of coffee and some food and we’re here now as I try to write my thoughts down. I don’t have much to say other than there’s a lot going on in the world right now and there’s a lot pressing on the mind. It’s been a while since I’ve gotten on here to write and well, I’ve been busy. The only one I really need to apologize to is myself. I’m not even sure anyone reads these, but when I write, I write like someone reads other than me or my mother. Life has gotten in the way, and I’ve been trying to manage myself, people, schedules, family, work, etc. It’s been a whirlwind as of lately, but I think I got my footing down at least for the next few weeks.

Has anyone else felt as if they are being pulled towards one direction or another lately? And I’m not talking about politics. I’m talking about truth versus lies, good versus evil. And what I mean by that is lines being drawn in the sand and you have to choose which side you’re on. You can feel the pull to want to do the right things, but you also feel the pull to do the wrong things too (kind of like in Star Wars where some of the characters began to feel the pull between the light side and the dark side of the force). With social media and the news at our fingertips, it’s almost impossible to ignore what is going on around you. I want nothing more to shut off myself from the outside world because the amount of information we absorb on a daily basis is overwhelming. We were never created to absorb so much information and process it so quickly. No wonder we’re always anxious or nervous or impatient with things and people. Our society has created this culture of “I want it now” or “I can’t live without this” and we have to feed this monster within ourselves to satisfy our cravings. We lack self-discipline and self-control and wonder why we are the way we are (and I’m the first to wholeheartedly admit that too. Like my mom always said if you point a finger at someone you got three pointing back). There are days I truly want to change my phone number, delete my social media, and move away and not say anything to anyone, but that’s not reality unfortunately. But back to what I said a few sentences up – what is going on?

Again, I want to reiterate – this is not political posting. I’m not talking about choosing a political side or picking a side regarding certain current events that have been going on. I’m talking about the things unseen. I’m not sure what you believe in, but there is good and evil afoot. Something in the spiritual sense that we cannot see which is shaping things in the world currently. I’ve reiterated before that I am a Bible believing Christian or what I like to call a Christ Follower. Meaning, I believe in the Holy Trinity, and I believe that Jesus was a real man, and also the son of God who died on a cross for the sins of this world, especially my sins. Because let’s be honest, there’s a lot of sin in this world and just being “good” is not going to cut it. And for that I am eternally grateful because I do not deserve it and I fail Christ daily. But to sit here and think things are going well, and things are okay in the world is just pure ignorance. And I think a lot of this has to do with the information we feed ourselves through the news and social media and because we are unknowingly ignorant towards it. We take a simple 15-30 second “reel” on instagram or a “short” on youtube and take it as gospel. If we don’t like what we see, we just scroll on by and create and algorithm which suites our likeness. We let catchy headlines influence our mind and decision making. We see things in ads and in our consumerism and we wonder why we can’t think clearly. Was all this orchestrated by design? Was all this done in an attempt to keep us for thinking for ourselves? And is this another way that keeps us from hearing God or communicating with Him? Was all this done with evil intent? Everything that is happening feels fake nowadays. And I know I’m not the only one thinking about all this. But I do know that things that were meant for evil can be used for good too.

I titled this blog “The Rabbit Hole.” Because no matter how many times we think we have found the answers, we keep going. How many times have we felt as if something was not right and we wanted answers, so we did our own research. How many conspiracy theories have we pondered and researched? And I’m not talking about asking ChatGPT or Ai to answer questions for us. I’m talking about looking at books or credible sources. Using our own mind to think critically or logically. When was the last time we as humans have done that? Because everything is so easy nowadays when it comes to information, we have become extremely comfortable and lazy in letting our standards fall. And I think it all boils down to self-control and self-discipline. If we limit ourselves to not be consumed by the things society has to offer, we can think somewhat clearly. I’ll say this and be done – the rabbit hole ends when we realize that there is good and evil. It’s a struggled between God and creation and in the end it all points back to who God is, who He was, and is to come.